We have been in Ukraine for a whole month today. I have such mixed emotions, I'm not sure what to think. There is such a passion inside me, every person I see reminds me why I am here! But... (yes there is a BUT) there are other things in which I am having such a hard time with.
PTL! The Lord provided us a great home in a great location, but our neighbors like to play there music loud and it is the boom, boom kind of music if you know what I mean. There really nice, but it's hard to focus on any one thing with the neighbors music vibrating through our house. One night, it went on like that till 4am.
I still have not been able to cook a real meal since we've been here. I can't read any of the labels, so I only buy by the pictures, or use my translator on my phone to try and figure out what everything is. It took me 3 weeks to figure out how to order pre-made food in the store so we can eat something other than Salome and cheese sandwiches :) So now it's chicken plove and young capushta salad every night. We do now have a translator that has been helping me at the grocery store, so I have been able to buy a little more than I had been. Right now, we only have a stove top. Here in Ukraine, they do not use ovens much, so there is not much of a need to have one. We have a oven ordered, hope it will be here soon. I guess as a mom and wife, I want to be able to provide for my family, but I can even fulfill my position by getting what I need. It's very frustrating.
Public transportation....I have already dedicated a post to it...but it does deserve an honorable mention here.... I do not like public transportation... I do not like it Sam-I-Am.... for them it's a part of life... for me it's a extreme frustration. I try so hard to be content... but when you have old grandmother yelling a your children and you have no idea what there saying... it can be quite upsetting.
Church is a lot different too.... in church last week... I had to walk out in the middle of the service and go to the bathroom and cry. I don't know exactly what it was. It may have been I couldn't understand the songs, or that when I was listening to my translator it made me feel a little disattached from the service...not sure exactly....
...it was nice to finally get our boxes yesterday. We have peanut butter :) Yeah!!! It was like Christmas opening all those boxes and seeing things that were familiar to me. :) Big smiles :)
I am so sorry, I know this post is a little on the negative side and very scattered... but I miss home something awful and my mind is going in 1000 different directions!!! Sometimes I lay in bed thinking of my mom and dad, and family we left in the states and all my friends and church family.... sometimes I really just want to go home... Go back to the states where everyone is familiar and I don't need a translator to get things done. Where I don't have to pay $100 for an clothes iron.... I know this is a part of my adjustment, but I don't like myself like I have been...
God has been sooooo kind and gracious to me....He knows what an adjustment this has been. My kids and my husband are doing so great :) I am so happy they are. But I know there is going to be a time in which they will go through the same thing I'm going through, and I hope by then I will be a little more stable and be able to help them adjust better!!
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